There's gotta be more to life.

So this is it. Today,Friday the 5th, I am officially done,done, done with school. (except for a final presentation,that is). I am finally done with the 5 months of pure torture(mentally only okay!), done with waking up as early as 5.30am to get to work(takes me 1 and a half hour to get to school, but hey! I am not complaining!Just sayinggg.heh.), done with the projects here though I know I can do even better to assist my supervisor but I did what I could, done with calling up of suppliers and chasing them for quotations, done with doing experiments after experiments and getting a failed outcome(sigh.Its just very upsetting to not get the desired results), done with doing and plotting statistics and making an analysis out of it, done with walking in and out of the cold office room just to take a breather at Canteen 3 and away from the workload.

But somehow, I know I am gonna miss this place. The staffs here are all very nice to me, they made my stay here as warm and and pleasant as possible, even my supervisor. He isn't the demanding type, he's all smiles and I do hope he gives me good grades too. *cross fingers*

So this is goodbye. I dunno what my future holds and after today, I can have all the time to worry about what I am gonna do next. Till the next post.

So currently, I am rushing through a 10-minute powerpoint presentation to be presented to my supervisor tomorrow. Cross fingers that he won't question me anything about PRO E drawing because seriously, I'll only go 'errrrrrrrr.' I dunno how I managed to get through with engineering drawing back then in Year 1. Just yesterday he asked me, 'So how can pass or not? If not, must come back here re-do your internship.' Gawd, I'll do anything not to go back there. I am not exaggerating, how bad can it be? Its not that bad, its just that its tormenting my mind. Told you engineering isn't my forte, imagine me wearing a mechanic suit filled with screwdrivers and whatnots and walking around, fixing mechanisms. I mean I entered this course in the first place was only because I enjoy doing Mathematics and working out electrical and mechanical equations, not drawing. I don't really favour practical stuffs but engineering is all about applying but I am more to theoretical kinda person. So what have I gotta say about myself? I'll just go all out tomorrow and whatever that's gonna happen, it will be. I am in no position to argue, just be hopeful I'll be able to pull this off. Well at least after tomorrow, I can give myself a pat on the back, a good job well done 'cos at least I've made it through despite all the whinings and complainings. 6 months, it all ends tomorrow.

Suddenly, I don't wanna be dressed in blue in the future. I still wanna sit in lectures and do tutorials. I wanna do assignments and feel the pressure of having to rush before the deadlines. Suddenly, I am just very afraid as to what lies ahead of me. God we're growing up so fast and have to leave the past behind and move ahead now. But truth is, I am not ready to give up my dreams. Not now, not just yet.

Its February already? Where did January go?

Girls, they just wanna have fun. No more tears now, just smiles. There's so much to look forward to in life. So WHATCHA SAYYY? Haha.
5 days now! Just 5! Yahooooooooooooooooo!

I don't know what God has in store for me. I know He's there,listening to your prayers,to your every needs. We're just his vulnerable servants, seeking help and protection from him because we know nothing on this Earth.We dunno where we're going but we struggle to find our way, hoping to make out something out of this life. He knows that we're suffering silently. Truth is, I'm one of those souls. All weak inside. I dunno exactly where I am going or where all this leads me to or what I am gaining from all this. I pray for a better life, always, everyday, each day.

If I could have just one night to talk to God, I would die to be able to do that.